Hello my lovely readers,
Sorry for being MIA… I wish I had some good news to share after my last post on the job opportunity that has come up, but sadly no. I’ve been licking my wounds ever since I learned that I did not get that position.
There’s a lot of mixed emotions that go into this. I actually made it to the final round interview and I thought I got along spectacularly well with the team. Apparently they thought so too, but wanted someone with a few more years of experience. I was bummed because if that was the issue, I feel like they should have just rejected me when they saw the resume rather than have me go through all these rounds of interviews.
Other reasons for my disappointment is that finding out about this opportunity has made me face truly how I feel about my current position. I took this position over others that would have paid much much more because I thought the entrepreneurial environment would mean I would get to do more strategic internal work. Although I have honestly tried, my boss refuses to admit that we need a strategic approach to growing the company. He also has this “when I tell you to jump, you ask how high and not why” mentality that I do not agree with. I have had nights when I stayed at the office past midnight because he had told us we need to talk about the project, only to have him never call that night. So although I am happy to work the hours necessary to put out the fires, I ask why it is a fire and whether it can wait until the next business day. Considering that I constantly work from 8 – 6 with no lunch breaks and on weekends, I do not think I am out of line to ask those questions.
Further, the labor rights in Illinois sucks and I do not have enough benefits. I have 401k and I am partially reimbursed for my HSA but I do not have short term or long term disability, which is a big deal when you are a female planning on having a family one day. This will be a separate post because I do think joining a small start up is glamorized with folks my age and many do not realize the downsides until it is too late.
So, I’ve been licking my wounds all week at my rejection. But I know I can’t just wallow in my sorrow. I have my office area finally set up and am creating a plan of action on how I will continue to develop my skills at my current employer while seeking new positions. And that means I am going to be blogging more, too.
For those of you who have sent me good energy/thoughts, thank you so much. And for everyone, thank you for your patience with me. I hope you are having a great weekend!