I received a shocking news today. A good friend of mine, who is all of 36 years old, has passed away. He passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. He was extremely healthy, eating well and working out constantly. He wasn’t supposed to die this soon.
Events like this make me ponder, why am I working so hard to save money? I make a great salary, have no debt other than student loans and mortgage, and I have no dependents. There is enough life insurance on me that if something were to happen, my husband will be fine. He will have to continue working at his job but he doesn’t have to worry about medical bills I might have incurred or covering the mortgage on his own. So why am I going “gazelle intense” when I probably don’t need to?
We talk theoretically about how we are preparing for the worst. We are saving up for the rainy day. But what if that rainy day is a sudden death? I also had read another blog where the husband ended up passing away before he was 30 due to an aggressive cancer that killed him in less than a year. He said he didn’t save for retirement, etc. because he lived in the now.
If I were on my death bed now, I think I would be regretful of the trips not taken, the fights we had over things like cleaning the house where we could have just hired someone instead, working so hard instead of doing things that I love, skipping making memories to save a few hundred dollars more in my bank account.
As much as I wish I could tell you that from this moment forth, I will stop trying to save money and just live. I wish I could tell you that this means I will fight with S less and go on more vacations together. But, to be honest, I am not sure what all this means. I am angry that my friend is taken away from the world too early and I am extremely sad. I am full of regret as he was on top of the list of people to call on Thanksgiving. Only had I called him over the weekend instead, I would have gotten a chance to speak with him. I am just days too late. This post is all just emotions talking. I may be silent over the next few days.. please take care of yourself and tell those around you that you love them.